I am one of the proponents in the age old battle between the sexes and this post might irk my fellow feminists although i have to admit that men are really fun to be with. Of course im not saying that they arent assholes but they could be fun assholes most of the time, specially if there's no romantic or sexual involvement.

I've recently realized how men could be jerks even to the point that i almost cursed them but this morning, I had the chance to hang out with some of my new found friends from work. Particularly this one asshole that really made it clear from the start that he is a certified schmuck.

The reason why i tell this is because i went out with my new girl friends and that experience was nice and fun too however girls cant really help but to be vain, shallow and dramatic, I also went with my new gay friends and that's always fun although i just hate it when they try to compete for attention and when they make such a big deal of everything. I also had bisexual friends but they really could be confusing at times.

But with men, There's no confusion, no competition and no pretensions. Just clean and not so clean fun. I think the only problems arises when they let their dumbstick take over their brains and we all know this happens 90% of their total existence.

I remember the previous new year celebration, My mom and i was watching fireworks and i whispered to her that "this might be the last time i'll be celebrating this holiday in the philippines." I said that because i had laid my plans for 2008 and one of them would be to move to a different country but life throws in happy distractions and i enjoyed my stay. My two year friend from the US, came to visit me only to find out that im not the sole reason why he came here and untill now, his careless action still affects me in profound ways. Im partly to blame because he was careful for me not to move the whole universe for him but i did; and also I met wonderful friends who made me postpone my plans. 

Now another year has passed. 2009 promises alot of potential and oppurtunity but somehow, im not in any way looking forward to it. i feel exactly the same way a felt towards christmas and new year. "This day too will past but it doesnt mean i couldnt celebrate it with a bang". 

So i did,  I went out on new year's eve. Everyone was amazed for they havent seen me in centuries and i tell you, i was looking gorgeous, i even made some good-looking drunk twins swoon over me. but of course after the hype of the celebration, im back to my old speck like existence.

maybe this post has some kind of self pitty in it but somehow, I can finally enjoy alone walks with no one but myself and it felt wonderful. No more irrational thoughts that maybe im not good enough that's why im alone. Just a sense of "i am alone coz no one is available and it doesnt mean it's the end of the world that i am."

I occassionally feel lonely but somehow my "checking facebook or yahoo or windows live therapy" is no longer the main point. I even deleted some of my friends just to get rid of the clutter of useless and superficial patronage that envelops this side of my life.

And to Geisha, Honey, Tapsi, Ifoundme, Bombero king and the others, forgive me but im taking a selfish streak right now. I hope you understand, I visit you often but i keep my thoughts to myself rather than leave a comment.

Take care and BE MERRY~

The year has passed and there's a new one and people have been optimistic regardless of the dire reminder that there is a economic uncertainty looming.

well i just hope that people would stop waiting for the new year to wait for a better life, why cant we just wait for tomorrow and still hope for a better day than today? We really dont need to have January first to remind us of this hope. Do we?

On a personal note: im happy coz despite the sour life i had, I 've met Many who makes me feel that im someone interesting and this is all i need to make me feel this year could be different.

Wishing every one a LUCKY YEAR AHEAD>

I dont celebrate christmas as normal people do. For me it's just an ordinary day and this holiday season is really different since there are noticeably less decor and less jolly celebrations, maybe people have finally realized how ridiculously expensive it is to splurge during this time of the year, or maybe there isnt really much to spend with. (damn you economic crisis!)

There are people who wishes me MERRY CHRISTMAS and personally, im a little uncomfortable with it since im not a person who greets everyone. When i do, most of the time its just because it is the polite thing to do and my friends may have noticed it since i dont greet them on birthdays or other special days. hehe (im a badass i know)

Let me use what George said to Callie (grey's anatomy) why he didnt say i love you back because basically this is one of the reason why i dont greet. Its not the same but somehow it kinda explains it.

"I didnt say i love you because i dont think it is the right time to say it but it doesnt mean i dont love you or i love you less than what you want from me. You just have to allow me to mean it coz if i said i love you now, i will be saying it because you want me to say it not because i mean it."

but let me clear this. I appreciate people who have greeted me. so thanks guys. >specially to Geisha and Nap< and for those who didnt, its not a big deal really and i hope that you dont take it against me if i didnt greet you.

Also, allow me to just say this. I know i've said that im agnostic but it bugs me when people send "Merry X-mas"  because i feel like Christ is excised out of the actual christmas greeting. X is used to denote an unknown of unnamed variable but everyone knows Christ so just out of respect to the guy, Let's use his name. I am not Catholic and this is not a religious request. maybe this is a religious tolerance request.

Upon, further research, I've found out that the Greek alphabet X called CHI (pronounced as KHI) is also a symbol for Christ (Christ is spelled as Χριστος in greek) and some people even consider X as a symbol for honoring the martyrs and X also represents the cross so i guess my XMAS is ok so disregard my request and send all XMAS greetings you want because i am a change person because i acquired knowledge and im open to change my views, i hope the churches and narrow minded people do the same and be open to the possibility that their reality may not be the same with others.

BTW just added info. The LABARUM. (Seen below) is a christian symbol representing christ and is a combination of the greek letter chi and rho.

 Ok i better stop because im becoming a nerd again. hehe. i need to get a life.

I quit my job last AUG and i finalized my withdrawal from the company on NOV (yes im that lazy) I thought that my final pay would be given to me after three months but last Dec 19th, i went to the company out of whim and i was told that my check (or as my australian friend says CHEQUE) will be available on DEC 23rd. Just in time coz i am really broke. Then i realized there is a long bank holiday because of christmas and new year so i have to endure the holidays eating scraps of cheese and a small loaf of bread.

Oh well. I will be able to cash it in by january and this money will be spend paying bills, so im not in any way afluent.